Not Ready To Make Nice
My mother’s recent inquiry about E’s dress (“She is turning ONE, you have to go out and buy her a dress, what kind of mother are you?”) made me realise that despite my regular attempts, I won’t ever fit ‘the box’. The box for the perfect daughter, mother, wife, friend, colleague and who knows what else. Somehow, a piece of me will always stay outside the symmetry of the pre-designed shape. I simply don’t fit the main stream and contrary to my youth, I am okay with it now.
So rather than spending a useless afternoon in crowded stores looking for a dress that my daughter would wear once only to spill milk and cake over it, we will go to the park together to feed the ducks. Rather than buying her anything revolutionary from the Toys-R-Us top 10 catalog, we settle for the good old all-time winner: a huge teddy bear.
The one thing I WILL focus on is to make E happy on her birthday. By being together, all four of us. By baking my one and only baby cake with apples from the scratch (deep at night, after I returned from my evening run). By singing all the baby songs we have learned and reading our favourite books. May be even by racing the wind together with our Baby Jogger…
No, I am not ready to make nice.
April Runs 
Good choice! If you can keep your family happy … that’s absolutely wonderful and something usually money cannot buy… ….. For everything else, there’s MasterCard 🙂
Cheers, 12:)
You are so right. From what I have seen around you, you are one of the few who manages to act on that rule: pursuing your happiness. The rest will come along…
Maminky to myslí vždycky dobře, maminky to myslí vždycky dobře, maminky to myslí vždycky dobře… některý mantry v některých okamžicích prostě stejně nezabírají. Máša oslavila první narozeniny v tomhle: http://www.littlerockstar.cz/body-38/je-mi-rock-18-24-mesicu.html a na plyšáky, panenky a kočárky nám prdí dodneška – včera si hrdě donesla z výsadku do hračkářství, kam ji babička pravidelně brává, malýho, děsně šerednýho, dinosaura – takže nejlepší box je ten, do kterýho nás nikdo nikdy nenapasuje!! 😉 PS Nenech se na**at a pořádně to oslavte, první narozeninový mejdan je jen jeden!
Vid? Mejdan sme na tvoji radu rozjely uz v pul sesty rano. Podavala se kase a piskoty a poustely jsme ABBU a Freddieho Mercuryho. Je nam rock!
you are so right! we try to conform to what people think we should be like, but at the end of the day, all that counts is that we are happy in ourselves.. Happy Happy birthday E!
Thank you for your kind and wise words. I think we managed to do it our way: E had a wonderful day and so did we :-). Good luck!
That sounds perfect!